freedom wall

Date: October 17, 2011

Time: 1:06 am

She’s watching a movie. This is the problem when you watch melodramatic chic-flick movies – you get too emotionally wrecked especially when you’re unconscious that your heart’s got a problem. She’s watching a wedding movie when suddenly, she asked herself: will I be able to find “that man”? Oh right! Now she’s been thinking that maybe, she’s really looking for Mr. Perfect! She’s not a fan of Mr. Perfect, but she’s not too honest to herself that one of her reasons behind her decisions of staying single are: 1) there is no such thing as forever 2) Mr. Perfect is too idealistic and too far from the reality. 3) She’s enjoying meeting different people, but she doesn’t date them regularly and have physical contact. 4) She is afraid. 5) She wanted to love and respect herself first.

She’s been thinking and still doubting if she’ll be able to find the man in the movies. She doesn’t know how she will pray for it. She has her own plans – she has plans for herself (only for herself, family, friends and strangers... but never for her soon-to-be-partner). Bigla niya tuloy naisip: is something’s wrong with me? Do I sound too selfish? Am I that rude not to include someone who could be with me as I achieve my goals?

She can’t wait for the day that she’ll be able to find true love and feel its own meaning.